Monday, August 29, 2011

Half Full or Half Empty?

I say half full!  This is my first (well second because really my first one was so awful that I pretend it never happened) attempt at a cinemagraph... what do you think?  I know its not very creative or artistic but I was just trying to get the hang of making one.  Cant wait to try another!

Boho Style

I love the Boho style.  It's so cluttered yet organized.  Peaceful yet exciting.  I'm gathering ideas for my living room...

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Looking for a camera bag...

I have been wanting a new camera bag even though the one I have is new and nice and very functional.  The problem I'm having is it's not very discreet and lately I have been making it a goal to take my camera with me everywhere but don't because my bag makes me look ridiculous.  So I'm on the hunt for a cute little discreet take-my-camera-with-me-everywhere type of bag.  I also don't want to spend a ton of money since I already have a perfectly good bag and a new one isn't a necessity.  Do you have a cute convenient camera bag and if so what kind?

Here's what I have found that I love...


I'm also considering just getting a cheap camera wrap and a cute camera strap cover.  I think it would be simple and easy.  The only thing is camera wraps kind of look like... well... yea.  You be the judge.


My second idea is the cheap option and I like cheap!  Maybe I can use my new found crochet skills and make my own camera strap.  We'll see how ambitious I'm feeling this weekend...

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Marathon & Fundraising Progress

This is just a quick update on my progress... 

I'm pleased to say that I can easily run 6 miles now and my body doesn't feel like a puddle of slop afterward.  Its amazing to see what practice and determination can actually do for your body.  I never thought I would be able to run so long and not even get winded or tired afterward.  I love it.  I love being (or getting) into shape.  I love to see what my body can do when I push it and I love to be surprised by my ability.  It's a great feeling.  My runs are getting longer and longer so it's a little harder to make time for them but my husband is supportive which helps.  I just have to remind myself that taking care of myself physically and mentally is a good thing not only for me but for my kids, too.   If I don't remind myself of that its easy to feel guilty that I take a hour of time away from my kids every other day when I run.  Does anyone else who has kids struggle with feeling like that?

But anywho...

Fund raising progress is ok, but I know I can do better.  The shy side of me is prevailing in my fund raising efforts. I feel so silly asking for donations but I know I need to get over that because it's for a good cause.  I'm at a total of $945, which is only $55 away from my goal of $1000!  In reality I hope I can raise more then that.  It will be great to know my efforts actually helps a deserving child in the end. If you would like to sponsor me to run the Rock N Roll Las Vegas Marathon let me know!  All money is going to the Make-A-Wish Foundation.

Hope you all have a great Thursday!

Xo

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Cinermagraphs

Have you ever seen a cinemagraph? I think I'm going to try one of these this weekend.  I'll let you know how that goes! They are so interesting to look at...I just found them and fell in love.  Hope you enjoy! Xo
















Monday, August 8, 2011

Up Close & Personal

This is a post that I have been contemplating writing for a year.  It's very personal, sad, and emotional so beware. I feel hopeful that sharing my thoughts might let more healing take place.

My father passed away last year, and we are soon approaching the 1 year "anniversary" (if you call it that...doesn't sound appropriate because it is not a celebration like anniversaries usually are).  This is by far the hardest thing I have ever gone through in my life and I still feel like I have not come to terms with it all.  He died in a fatal car accident.  I think the hardest part about accepting his death is thinking about the way it happened.  For some reason I cannot let go because it happened so suddenly and so unexpectedly. I still have the images in my head. I can't let go and stop thinking, was he in pain?  Did he suffer?  How long did he have to suffer?  I can't stop dwelling on these thought.  I wish there was some way I could find peace in these thoughts.

I remember finding out and the sting that I felt.  Like I could literally feel my heart breaking.  I collapsed. My daughter was only three months old.  He couldn't go now!  I need him and my kids need a grandfather.  He left behind three other children and they all need him, too.  I remember thinking "I am only 24!  This is too young to have to bury a parent".  I wasn't prepared to handle this.  He never got a chance to see my son start kindergarten or my daughter take her first steps.  Its so sad that my daughter wont even remember him, all that we have are pictures to show her of him holding her when she was just weeks old.  My son has vague memories of him and I pray that his little brain holds on to those memories forever because they are so special.

There is so much that he is missing out on and it kills me. I feel like sometimes my hurt with all this is more selfish then anything and I need to let go of the hurt and anger.  I trust the words "he is still with me, he can still see my children grow, he will always be with us".  I say those words to myself all the time when I'm missing him, but there is still an open wound that I can't seem to close.

I feel like at times, I am handling it all so well... Then I see a movie on about a girl and her dad and I start crying out of nowhere.  Or I hear a song on the radio about death and I start crying.  Then all the feelings of grief and sadness come flooding back and it feels as painful as it did the first day.  I always heard the first year is the hardest, and "time heals all".  If that's true then why does it still hurt so bad?  Have any of you lost a loved one and how did you deal with it? 


This song by Perry that I posted below always gets to me the most.  It is such a beautiful song and the words seriously pull at the heart strings.  I mean literally every time it's on in the car I turn it up loud and sing the words while crying like a crazy woman.  I don't want to ever forget my dad and his memory will always be in my heart... I just wish there was a way I could find relief from the pain.



"We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord." - 2 Corinthians 5:8

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Friday, August 5, 2011

Rain




I have been so lazy with everything lately.  I'm just in a funk of sorts.  I haven't been taking many photographs because I feel like I don't have anything interesting to shoot.  I haven't been blogging much lately because I feel like I don't have anything interesting to say.  About the only thing I have been consistent with lately as far as my passions go it running.  Does anyone else ever feel like that?  Not like a depression but a lack of passion and creativity?  It's a weird feeling. Listening to this song and looking at these photos of the rain kind of spark up a desire to pick up the camera though (as my did would say, "makes me want to be somebody")... maybe that's all that I'm lacking...inspiration?  If you have any for me please do share!  Hope you all have a adventurous wonderful weekend.

Xo

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Craft of the Week - Tea Dying / Pillow Case Making

I finally had some time this weekend to to a little crafty craft.  I came across this idea for tea dying on the Internet and love it!  I hate using normal dye, it smells, it stains, and its a pain to do.  Dying with tea is easy, cheap, and i good way to make your whites look antique.  The instructions are very simple.  All you need are some tea bags (about 3 of them but you can use more if you want a deeper color), and a pot to boil the tea in.  Here are me easy instruction:

  • Pre-soak you items in cold water, this helps the dye evenly saturate your item.
  • Boil a big pot of water with your tea in it, remove the tea bags before you add your item.
  • add whatever it is you are dying and let boil until you get your desired color.  Keep in mind that when you rinse it the color will be a little lighter then what you see when you immediately remove your item from the pot of tea.  I boiled mine for 5 minutes to achieved a subtle cream color.
  • ring out your item and put it in the wash rinse cycle on cold 
  • tumble dry no heat until thoroughly dry...that's it! (if you want to be like me and paint what you dye, DO NOT use fabric spray paint because it bled into my fabric and got splatters everywhere.  Probably my fault for being careless but lesson learned!  I would recommend using a regular fabric paint with a thicker texture to avoid bleeding.)

I'm adding pictures on here of my sewing process for the pillow case I made to dye.  If you want to take a stab at this it was really easy.  You just measure, fold, and sew (all straight lines)!  Also... I'm not including the pictures of my finished product because I kind of ruined it with the paint, But I will be making another soon and hopefully it turns out better and I will share it.